Thank you sweetheart. Honestly, I can’t even celebrate at all. I felt a lot of shame and embarrassment about the topic (pup) and it took me months to feel any pride in it. That only came after a shit ton of editing, since it was first rejected due to all the errors and then only accepted cause someone dropped out. Sooo many errors, I was so happy to smite them all. Or not.

Eddie Izzard once said if you’re a woman and you trip in heels, you’ll be embarrassed, but if a bloke trips in heels, he has to kill himself. I think my pride is wounded more so because I took a risk on a not well understood niche of BDSM lifestyles and the risk did not pay off. Someone on Goodreads gave it 2 out of 5 stars, too. Also, my Tumblr readers do not seem to care for my publications – those posts get very very few likes/reblogs compared to my normal captions. I don’t get why. So now I’m embarrassed too cause I hyped it up to an uninterested crowd and now I gotta retract it all.

And that said, my self esteem is very fragile cause I’m trying to climb out of depression. Every time I see my Tumblr inbox envelope light up I assume it’s something negative. I was really hoping Orion was gonna get good reception, but nope. I also could have used the money from good sales, but nope. Just another nope in a line of nopes.

The cover is awesome though.

So Orion’s New Leash on Life came out yesterday. I finally got up the nerve to look at the published piece….and some edits were not made in the final print. Really big errors. Like, at the end, one of the minor character’s names gets switched around back and forth with another character’s name by mistake so it’s going to confuse the hell out of my readers. I also spotted an instance where the tense switched from third to first person.

I already sent out my promo copies to reviewers and like 5 people already bought it …and shit. Just shit. Dreamspinner was right in rejecting the story the first time around because it just had too many errors to fix before the printing deadline. It went through three rounds of editing, and we all still missed these. But, it’s mostly my fault because I wrote it not only under extreme pressure, having found out about the anthology last minute, but also under extreme stress from real life work. 

So I’m really sorry everyone. I’m gonna try to resolve this. If anyone who bought it finds my way to my Tumblr and wants a refund, I’ll personally mail you a check or some such thing. I might just have the thing pulled, because I just can’t anymore.

I’m so nervous, I think I’m going to be ill. I feel very unwell.

It’s $3.99 USD and here is the URL: http://www.dreamspinnerpress.com/store/product_info.php?products_id=5142
And here is the anthology URL and it’s $64.99: http://www.dreamspinnerpress.com/store/product_info.php?products_id=5113

As of right now there isn’t a Goodreads page for it, but I will look into getting one set up. There is now, bitches. I haven’t gotten the goddamn promo copies yet, so there aren’t any Tumblr reviews.

Thank you for your patience with this everyone, and thank you for reading. It’s 3 am and I spent all day doing a very long organizational gig, so I’m checking out. I’m going to do a proper post tomorrow with the cover image and credits, if you’d like to wait to reblog it then.