Ugh. Tomorrow marks my first 4 weeks without an orgasm and it’s finally starting to hit me again. I’m starting another unbearably horny phase about now where everything turns me on and almost nothing satisfies me.
It’s also weird because my taste in men has grown and changed in the past year and is much broader than it used to be. My slave mindset has also grown. I’ve gone from feeling like my Master’s slave and puppy to feeling like I’m a slave in general, feeling inferior to the men I feel as being superior to myself. It’s an interesting shift in perspective.
So now, with the addition of the building feeling of horniness, I see men who used to fall into the category of unbearable and cocky now fall into the category of superior men. The result of this category shift is that I get hard instantly and want to do nothing more than satisfy these men.
I follow a lot of slaves that have discovered this feeling and can act on it because they are more able to act on this instinct either because their Masters want their slaves to do so or because there are men around them that they can satisfy. The superior men I see are mostly on Tumblr and nowhere near me, so I can’t act on this new instinct as easily.
I don’t know. I feel helpless because I can’t act on these instincts the way I’d like. It means that I put all of that energy into satisfying the only superior man that matters in my life, my Master, but I still can’t help but drool and moan like a bitch in heat when I see an unbelievable attractive muscle man or a superior man who knows they’re superior.
A boy far along in his training writes some honest thoughts. Very hot.